Odio esto is the motto of my life right now. I feel like I can’t handle this. I want what I want and I can’t fucking have it. i haven’t experienced this level of pain in my entire life. Excruciating to say the very least.
And there isn’t a damn thing I can do. I am doing everything in my power.. still nothing. Which I think is the worst part.
I hate/loath/vomit about/love a tiny bit, this chapter. Growing is good for me right now. Not knowing if I will get to share and experience this growth with the person I want to? The worst.
